Beholden

  What is in a “thing?” – heartbeat or not – even inert matter holds sway over our emotions and our thoughts – wrapped up in memories, glimmers of truth and lies, our compromised realities reflecting treasured ties – so, what is in a “thing?” heartbeat or not, does it exist before we see it, …

Dreams

  “The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away,” and while he can appear fickle I’m expected not to change, a test of endurance, that’s the game that we play, he throws the punches to see how much we can take, before we say fuck it, and just walk away.   Fun.   But I …

For Amusement’s Sake

I am but a dirty old man who finds himself in possession of a gem – afraid to put it on display, I simply twirl it in my hands –   – existing independent of appreciation, it appears to alter with the changing of perspective, but it cares not about the many forms it takes …

On Humans and Humanity

  It’s funny how we humans need not possess humanity – kinda like having book smarts but no common sense – redressing the oppressed for succumbing to providence, as if skin color or sexuality spoke to ethics or morality.   Spirituality is beyond the realm of worldly bonds and ambitions, so let the theologians get …

Yes, I Know

Yes, I am mean – I know it, you don’t have to tell me. I’m very good at it, I’m not proud of it, it’s my fall back mechanism when you’re fucking with my OCD. Yes, I can be kind, it takes some work, but I try. I’m emotional and walking lines you cannot see. …

For the Children

How do we fight when words are not enough and decency is not a universal imperative, just something to divide those who can get things done from those who are outdated, when the idea of God is dead to most, and the idea of being good for good’s sake is not a philosophy remembered? – …

Fan Club

My mom sent me a kind email a few posts ago reminding me that if I use words like “everyone” and “we all” then I am bound to trigger peoples shit and make them upset. But, I mean, who listens to their moms on the truly important things? “We all” eventually learn these lessons on …

Keeping Me Up at Night

What gives value to our lives? What makes one life more valuable than another’s? At what point does someone’s greatness allow us to overlook their misdeeds? Is there not something fundamentally wrong with idolizing a slaver just because he taught us “how to say goodbye?” Is it not creepy to be enraptured by a dancer and …

When you’ve Got Two Cooks in the Kitchen

I have a little crazy in me. I keep him in a nice padded room next to my heart. But I don’t keep the door locked. We have an understanding. He’s free to come out and take over whenever needed. Everything works fine so far as he follows the rules we’ve established. Everything has a …

Heavenly Creatures

When I was 16, my guru gave me the name Sreejit and I immediately went to the courthouse to change it legally. Everyone in my school knew the reason for the change, so I didn’t have to explain it. When I joined the workforce, people would constantly ask me where my name came from and …